Friday, November 12, 2010

Why Am I working in CN?

Some people may said because of the money? But I can tell you frankly, if because of money, I would have stay at Norway. Why shall I come to China which is lower pay but higher expenses than Kuala Lumpur.

Some people may guess because of the experience? Sigh...I don't learn much from Chinese with the office currently is running slow in most projects. Again, I will learn much more if I transfer to permanent employee at Norway.

Then why? Since Norway got all the pros, why I choose Shanghai?

Receive a call from friend. His grandfather has passed away. He needs a flight ticket back to KL immediately. Help him to call up airlines, ask for seats available and everything. Luckily, SH expo is over, SH-KUL has many flights so shouldn't be a problem for him to return to KL as soon as possible.

Remember Kam's father accident. By the time Kam touched down on KL land, it was already at least 13 hours after he received the call from his family. That is only flight hour, prior condition is he must be able to get a ticket immediately. At certain countries which only have flights 3 days a week. You have to wait for the second day.

Flying hour from Norway to KL takes around 16 hours. 1.5 hours from KL-PG. If anything happen to my family, by the time I reach home, it is at least after 24 hours. Can you imagine the suffer, pain, worry, the ants biting and crawling in your heart feeling for that 24 hours? I can't stand it. I don't want.

That's why I choose to work at Shanghai which only takes 5 hours flight from here to KL. Does anyone think before that is the reason I work in CN?

Sunday, November 07, 2010

disillusioned

demotivated, dissattisfied, annoyed, boiling rage.

i wonder if this is all worth it?

all the negativity surrounding me is blinding. i'm forgetting the very reason i'm here.

i'm reaching for the white flag. i am a fighter, but this is not the right cause.